Here "words" refers to a message or teaching. AT: "opposed the message that we teach" (See: [[rc://en/ta/man/translate/figs-metonymy]])
# At my first defense
"When I first appeared in court and explained my actions"
# no one stood with me
"no one stayed with me and helped me"
# May it not be counted against them
This can be stated in active form. AT: "May God not count it against them" or "I pray that God does not punish those believers for leaving me" (See: [[rc://en/ta/man/translate/figs-activepassive]])